Leslie Morgan Steiner曾经陷入“疯狂的爱情”——即爱上了一个经常虐待她并威胁她生命的男人。Steiner描述了她的婚姻中黑暗的一面，纠正了许多人对于家庭暴力受害者的错误理解，并告诉我们如何帮助受害者打破沉默。
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Leslie Morgan Steiner
Leslie Morgan Steiner is a writer and outspoken advocate for survivors of domestic violence -- which includes herself.
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为了便于听写，gonna一律写成原型going to的形式。Back to my question: Why did I stay? The answer is easy. I didn't know he was abusing me. Even though he held those loaded guns to my head, pushed me down stairs, threatened to kill our dog, pulled the key out of the car ignition as I drove down the highway, poured coffee grounds on my head as I dressed for a job interview, I never once thought of myself as a battered wife. Instead, I was a very strong woman in love with a deeply troubled man, and I was the only person on Earth who could help Conor face his demons.
The other question everybody asks is, why doesn't she just leave? Why didn't I walk out? I could have left any time. To me, this is the saddest and most painful question that people ask, because we victims know something you usually don't: It's incredibly dangerous to leave an abuser. Because the final step in the domestic violence pattern is kill her. Over 70% of domestic violence murders happen after the victim has ended the relationship, after she's gotten out, because then the abuser has nothing left to lose. Other outcomes include long-term stalking, even after the abuser remarries; denial of financial resources; and manipulation of the family court system to terrify the victim and her children, who are regularly forced by family court judges to spend unsupervised time with the man who beat their mother. And still we ask, why doesn't she just leave?
I was able to leave, because of one final, sadistic beating that broke through my denial. I realized that the man who I loved so much was going to kill me if I let him. So I broke the silence. I told everyone: the police, my neighbors, my friends and family, total strangers, and I'm here today because you all helped me.回到我的问题：为什么我留下来？答案很简单。我并不知道他是在虐待我。即使他拿着那些上膛的枪指着我的头，把我推下楼梯，扬言要宰了我们的狗，当我正在高速公路上开车时把汽车钥匙拔了，在我为求职面试而准备着装时把咖啡粉从我头上倒下来，我从来没想过我是一个饱受虐待的妻子。相反，我是一个非常坚强的女人，深爱着这个饱受困扰的男人，而我是世界上唯一一个能够帮助Conor面对自己心魔的人。
大家都会问的另一个问题是，为什么她不一走了之？为什么我没有逃走？我本来随时可走。对我来说，这是人们问过的最让我伤心和痛苦的问题，因为有些事情只有我们受害者知道而你们通常不知道：离开施虐者是非常危险的。因为家暴模式的最后一步就是杀掉她。超过70%的家庭暴力谋杀发生在受害者结束这段关系后，在她离开之后，因为这时施虐者已经一无所有了。其它可能的结果包括长期的纠缠，甚至在施虐者再婚之后；拒绝经济支持；操纵家事法庭系统去恐吓受害者和她的孩子，而孩子们通常会被家事法庭法官要求和那个打他们的母亲的男人一起度过一段无人监管的时间。而我们仍然会问，为什么她不一走了之？
我之所以能够离开，因为最后一次残暴的殴打突破了我能承受的极限。我意识到如果我放任他，这个我曾深爱的男人会把我杀了。所以，我打破了沉默。我告诉每一个人：警察、邻居、亲友、陌生人，而今天我能站在这里是因为你们都帮助了我。
——翻译 by 十平 （水平有限，仅供参考） | 
发表于 2016-8-2 11:39:55